So I have these moments in my life where I just have to cry! They used to be more frequent and have become further and far between. Tonight was one of those nights. After watching Grey's Anatomy I had to go for a walk. I found myself on a bench just crying. Just sitting there, talking to God and just crying. Am I depressed or just having a rough night. I figured a little bit of both. It isn't anything I am worried about. It doesn't happen enough to be concerned. I will probably be fine tomorrow. I usually am. I just hate it when these moments happen. Am I alone in this? Please tell me there are more moms out there that find themselves crying over nothing, or crying over something that isn't too big of a deal.
I mean come on. We have so much on our minds on a daily basis. We have other lives that depend on us to pull through. We are actually raising the future. On top of keeping up with the bills and the inside and outside of the house. Along with food and clothes and animals (if we are dumb enough to have them, which I am). Our minds are never able to rest. These break downs are probably super healthy for us. To relieve our emotions that have been building up.
RIGHT?
That sounds good to me. I am not going to worry about these moments, I am going to start embracing them and learning from them. The things that I discussed with God on that bench will be the things that I will concentrate on in a positive way over the next few months.
wow, good for you for taking your "break downs" so well. You definitely are NOT alone in this...the only difference is that you handle them a lot more maturely than me! I usually just end up crying or screaming into my pillow. I think mine are combination of depression and being overwhelmed. i agree that it is totally healthy to for us (the way you do it more than mine) to have a way to just release our emotions. Thanks for the post!
ReplyDeleteI usually don't react this way. This is a first!
DeleteIt is extremely healthy and important to cry and release your emotions. Not sure if you know, but I have been dealing with Postpartum Depression/Anxiety since I had Easton. I am on meds and go to weekly talk therapy sessions and the one thing I have learned is that we are totally not alone AND talking to others who have the same struggles, had the same struggles or are empathetic helps out so much. Call me whenever hot momma!
ReplyDeleteD, I had mild postpartum after Payton. After Rae though I had it really bad! I also ended up on medication and over time it got better! It's funny how you start out thinking you are alone in every rough situation but there are a ton of people who go through exactly what you are going through, once you let it be known. I know you will make it through! You are a great mom and Easton is lucky to have you!
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